Am I creative?

What makes a person creative??

This was the very first question that was posed to me for the start of this “Methods of Design” course at Full Sail.  My first class for 2016.  I sat there and stared at the screen for a long time just wondering, “Is it actually what I think it is?” and okay, lots of ground this could cover.

I mean seriously, What “does” make a person creative?  I  mean, everyone is creative in some sense, aren’t we?

Well, being the total nerd that I am the first place I went was m-w.com (or http://www.merriam-webster.com/) though I’ve always just remembered to type the first thing.  Lazy I guess.

Merriam-Webster said:

creative

adjective cre·a·tive \krē-ˈā-tiv, ˈkrē-ˌ\

Simple Definition of creative

  • : having or showing an ability to make new things or think of new ideas

  • : using the ability to make or think of new things : involving the process by which new ideas, stories, etc., are created

  • : done in an unusual and often dishonest way

This part caught my eye “using the ability to make or think of new things”.  So, having an idea really isn’t being creative until you put that thought into action or is it until you put it down on paper?  Are you creative just because you think of really cool things and spout them off to everyone? Well, maybe that just makes you a creative thinker and not a creative doer….

I think what makes a person creative ends up being is what inspires that person to act.   A person becomes creative when he (or she) takes that little idea running around in their dreams at night and turning it into reality.

So, am I creative?  I guess if you can call my poetic ramblings, scribbles on paper and this blog a product of my creativity than yes, by definition, I’m pretty creative.  Other than that, I’m basically just a little crazy and willing to put myself out there.

Oh, speaking about that…. it also asked, “if creativity could be taught.” This is something I am learning myself.  Someone prompted me towards a book called “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron.  This book is a little “out there” in a sense where it takes you on a spiritual path to opening yourself up to remembering how to be creative.  So if you aren’t really into that kind of thing or open to seeing things from that perspective it probably isn’t for you.  I’m enjoying reading it so far.

There was this quote by Pablo Picasso that I liked in it that said:

“Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.”

Emily's Creative Child
I like thinking that there is a little Emily locked inside begging to come out and play again.  It gives me hope that there is more to my existence than just this 45-year-old mom who happens to be disabled and bored.

~~~talk to you later~~~

Oh, for this class I also had to make a site for my school work.  You can check it out at http://emilyjsmall.blogspot.com/   Presently it just shows the beginnings of my second assignment that involves taking a work of art that I wouldn’t hang on my wall and making it into something I find more aesthetically (I totally spelled this wrong like 3 times.  Thanks, Grammarly  for fixing it for me. ) pleasing.

~em

Just there on the desk…

Last night I finished my final presentation for my 3D Foundations Class (which basically taught me the basic of using the Maya application.)  I had to take 4 of the models that I created from image references, UV them, Bake an Ambient Occlusion on them and then import them into a scene.  Then had to take an artistic render image of this.  So, for a program I started the month of August knowing almost nothing about I think I did pretty well.

This is how that turned out.  I don’t know how “artsy” the picture I took is, but at least I got the silly models to stop glowing!  Apparently when I imported them I forgot to move some files beforehand and Maya did some funny stuff.
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so, I made the teapot, the fork, the candlestick and the spray can.  Slowly but surely I “will” learn this and be good at it!! *laughs*  ah well….

This month I have Art Fundamentals 2 … so you’ll get to see my lame attempts at drawing humanoids… I’m weeping over here just a bit, as the thought terrifies me. Give me some confidence k?

I used the picture to inspire some writing…. enjoy ❤

Today I thought about all the things on my desk,
the teapot you bought for me from somewhere out west.
There’s that stolen fork from the dive where we happened to meet.
Your friends thought it was funny, that you bought a stranger a treat.
Even the can of red spray paint is sitting on there.
Remember we used it to draw that heart at the faire.
I have that candlestick holder there as well.
It’s flawed just a little, but it makes my heart swell.
To remember the candle that was in it that day.
That united us together in such a special way.
So random the things I have on this desk.
But they remind me of us, so I like them the best.

Till next time…. ~em

ah… the joys of Maya 2016….

So…. yeah….

It’s Tuesday, and I was all excited because my first class in 3-D Fundamentals was today.  Woot!  Not so woot, was trying to get Autodesk’s Maya 2016 to install.  Now, I already had Maya 2014, but apparently for this class I need the 2016 version.  Being that I have been a computer girl for 20+ years I figured, sure, NO problem, I’m so on this…. so I hopped over to the site, snagged my student edition with my newly created license.  Downloaded, (which took WAYYYYY longer than it should have) then proceeded to install..(again, way long)

So it’s installed, I’m psyched because I got it done hours before my class so yeah, I’ll be able to at least learn the UI and fiddle with some of the controls before class… Everyone likes to at least know what’s going on right?

Wrong…

Huge wrong….

big time, not going to happen, you’ve been played, “the cake is a lie” kind of wrong.

It refuses to activate the product, it does not like any of my product keys, it says files do not exist.  So for the next four + hours of my life, I’m on the phone with my school tech support, Autodesk live support, Autodesk email support (because of course they do not want to give me a live person to rant at about their wondrous product), hours later, I’m sitting here yet again, uninstalling the product, so I can attempt to create a “new” account, so I can get a “new” license, so I can download a “new” copy of this program.  This was at the suggestion of the 4th Autodesk tech I had the pleasure of dealing with today.  Hopefully this will fix it on my Windows PC, tomorrow I’ll worry about putting this product on my Macbook.

Can I go crawl into a corner and cry for awhile?

Oh, I did get one copy installed enough so I can use the “try me” version on my windows PC for class, during which I got a bunch of virtual cookies (Apparently that’s this professor’s thing!! Thankies ( 감사합니다 ) to Professor Bagsby @ Full Sail ) I learned quite a bit and even got to show my screen, though I did learn I have NO clue how to rotate when my hand is shaking cause I got stage fright!

for the record the chocolate ones were the best!

[image represented not the actual one given, as they were consumed upon digital receipt, this one is from Baking with Basil, Brooke, 2010]

Sadly, I’ll be continuing to work on this tonight, but I thought I would share my glorious first adventure with Maya 2016! Maybe I’ll update the page if I ever figure this out!  Maybe it might help out some other unfortunate soul.

I’ll leave you with my current screen.

~~ Until next time~~

Em

Just another Monday….

Gratefully Mondays are usually pretty light for me…. which is nice considering on Sunday I’m usually trying to finish up all my assignments for class.  Since I’m in Art Fundamentals 1 this session on Sundays I’m usually trying to decide if I’ve done “ENOUGH” so that i’m satisfied with what I’m submitting.  My middle daughter calls me a “Try Hard”, because I am always trying to make things better.  Isn’t that what life should be about though?  Improving yourself?

Today I pulled together my current KPOP playlist and streamed it over MIXLR.  I uploaded the recording to Soundcloud mainly because I tend to stream it during the rest of the week while I’m working on homework or housework.

I tend to prefer listening to the Korean music more than American tunes.  Nothing against our music, but the Korean stuff tends to remind me of like 90s R&B, which I was always partial to.

I also went ahead and uploaded a few of my photos to RedBubble.  I figure why not.  If someone likes one of them enough to buy something with the image on it, go for it.

You can find my stuff @ http://www.redbubble.com/people/lanoirsoleil/portfolio.

You can check out my latest work on my Flickr.  This is my latest project for school!  Let me know what you think. 🙂  I’ll be really happy when I can move past the drawing class for a bit.  *laughs*

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Till next time!! (다음 시간까지!)

~Em

Finding inspiration in a movie…

Hello Hello!

After doing my homework the other night, I stayed up watching “The Man from Nowhere“.  This is a Korean film that pretty much is a man who ends up fighting for a child who lives next door to him.  It reminded me quite a bit of that movie “Léon: The Professional ” with Natalie Portman as the child.

By the end of the film I was sitting here, so jarred by the experience that I ended up sitting there, sketching the little girl from it.  It isn’t perfect but considering I only started drawing again in the last few months, not too bad… This is how it turned out.

So-mi - The Man from NoWhere.

Today when I logged on my wordpress account here, I found this post by ChristyMendy, called Stick Through It: The Fear of a Creative Career.  In it this young girl is determined to follow her own dreams even though the teachers at her school were negative towards it.  Years later, this girl is now graduating from college with the graphic design degree she wanted.  You have to applaud her success.

For years I allowed the people around me, and my own circumstances dictate what life I was living and what I would do with it.  It is nice to see someone so young find their way.  I can only hope my children will learn this early on like she has.  I wish her much success in her future!! I look forward to seeing where she goes from here.

If I remember I’ll post again soon.

~Em

Flower Girl & Inner Spirit

Figured I would actually start posting on this site so it isn’t just sitting here.  I started working with my WACOM tablet.  My first time really using one of these things so yeah… I am hoping I can only get better ~~

This first one is my very first attempt.  I used  Photoshop to draw and add texture, add my tag  and add slight filter.

Inner Spirit

Inner Spirit – 02 JULY 2015

This second one is also a Photoshop  drawing, I added a conte crayon filter to give it a texture..and to add my tag.

Flower Girl

Flower Girl – 03 JULY 2015

Yep, this is a process of learning for me definately…  We will see where it goes ❤

~Emily~